Later, James deliberately arranged for us to finalize our divorce on the same day he and Delia would register their marriage.
But this time, things were different.
That day, the man who had always been so aloof, so coldly composed, looked like he'd lost his mind. His eyes locked onto my flat stomach, his voice cracking with something close to hysteria. "Where's my child? Where's our child?"
"You promised me you wanted to have a baby with me!"
...
"Linda, are you sure you want to go through with this? After everything you went through for this baby..."
My mother's voice broke over the phone, and guilt twisted in my chest.
She had been the happiest person in the world when she found out I was pregnant.
She knew what it had cost me.
A full year of choking down bitter herbal medicine. Nine failed IVF cycles. It wasn't until the tenth attempt that I finally conceived.
The moment the test results came back positive, my mother had wept with joy.
She believed that with a child, James and I would finally settle into a real marriage. That he would step up, become a responsible husband, learn to put family first.
But today, I realized how terribly wrong we had both been.