Gideon might go out again.
Gideon was having the cold war with me again.
In the past, every time we had a quarrel or a cold war, I would worry and feel that I couldn't keep him.
I would start to wonder whether he really loved me.
I frequently opened my chat history with him and pretended to have sent him the wrong message, but he ignored me.
He wasn't interested in what I sent him.
I pretended to touch the phone and called him accidentally, but he didn't answer.
Every time this happened, I would become restless, not want to listen to the class, and only want to find him.
But now, I felt physically and mentally relaxed.
Because I was sick, I just wanted to have a good sleep. Gideon moved to the guest room, which was exactly what I wanted.
I cooked and ate by myself and no longer cared whether he had eaten or not.
Anyway, he wouldn't eat it even if I cooked dinner, and he would even think I was annoying.
I brought breakfast and lunch to the university and ate dinner in the cafeteria.
I spent the whole day in the library working on my paper.
I invested time in myself and felt fulfilled every day.
After living together, I always concentrated on Gideon.