I thought, "If there is a pill for regret, I am willing to take it at any price. I would insist on staying with my mother and never allow Benjamin to skip work for a tryst. I also wish I could kill myself and take Benjamin along to be buried with my mother!"
I went back to the ward to pack my things and ran into Benjamin and Olivia, who were late.
My hatred turned into despair.
I wondered, "Even if they sacrificed their lives, it would not allow my mother to live one more night."
Benjamin could tell that Matthew's tone was unfriendly.
After Matthew left, he wrote out a few heart examination applications and threw them in front of me. "Elizabeth wasn't feeling well. Why didn't you just tell me? You didn't fulfill your duty as a daughter."
I ignored him. I lowered my head and opened the insulated lunch box. Elizabeth was weak, so I made her hot croissants.
But the croissants were completely cold. The crispy crust had softened.
I numbly ate a croissant. The croissant was sweet, but my tears were salty. My tongue felt so bitter.
I didn't answer Benjamin's question. He snatched the insulated lunch box away. "I'm talking to you. Don't you hear me?"