My granddaughter called me from the hospital at 3:17 in the morning, and before I even reached the ER, I already knew this was the night everything in our family would finally come into the open.

She looked at me for a long second. Then she put the box back and closed the drawer gently.

“That’s very you,” she said.

“Yes,” I replied. “It is.”

The first anniversary of the night she called came and went without either of us naming it immediately. Trauma anniversaries are like weather fronts; the body often notices first. Brooke slept poorly the week before. I found myself listening for my phone in the night even when it was on the bedside table in plain sight. We were both quieter, shorter-tempered, more alert to noises we normally dismissed.

On the actual date, a Tuesday, I made blueberry pancakes because Brooke had once declared them “the only ethical pancake.” She came downstairs, looked at the plate, looked at me, and said, “You remembered.”

“Of course I remembered.”

She stood there for a moment in the kitchen, hair loose, seventeen by then though still somehow sixteen in the light when she was sleepy.

“I hate that day,” she said.

“So do I.”

She sat at the table. “But I like that I called you.”

I set the coffee down and sat across from her.

“That,” I said, “is one of the few useful parts.”

She nodded, eyes on the steam curling from her mug.