Not from the cold—though the mountain air has already sunk deep into my bones, personal and unforgiving. Not from grief either—though grief is everywhere, hanging in the rafters, pressing into my ribs, slipping under my skin with every breath. It’s because I recognize my son’s handwriting, and seeing it here, hidden beneath rotten floorboards in a ruined cabin my daughter-in-law used as punishment, feels far too intentional to be coincidence.
I sit on the splintered floor, the envelope resting in my lap, the metal box beside me.
For a long moment, I just stare at the word written across the front.
Mama.
No one has said it gently in days.
Since the funeral, every version of my name has sounded like a burden. Eulalia, when people wanted to know if I had somewhere to go. Señora, when officials pretended not to notice I was still wearing the same black shoes. “Vieja inútil,” when Monserrat stood in that four-million-dollar house and pointed me toward the mountain like I was something broken being thrown away.
I slide my finger under the flap and open it.