“Get out,” my brother-in-law said.

My father, Robert Hayes, stood frozen in the doorway of the seaside house I had bought for my parents’ fortieth anniversary, one hand still resting on the brass doorknob as if the metal itself might explain what was happening. In his other hand he held a small paper grocery bag with a loaf of sourdough sticking out the top and a bunch of green onions bent at the stems. Behind him, beyond the low stone wall and the sloping strip of pale grass, the Monterey shoreline was being itself—gray water, white spray, waves smashing against the rocks with the indifference only the ocean can manage.

It should have been an ordinary morning. The kind my mother had always dreamed of. Coffee on the porch. Sea air in the curtains. My father pretending to read the paper while he really watched the horizon.

Instead, my mother was standing in the gravel driveway in her slippers and lavender cardigan, mascara running in two black lines down her cheeks, crying so hard she kept pressing her fist against her mouth as if she could physically hold the sound inside.