I did not blame him for that at first. Then I blamed him less than I should have. Then one day I woke up and realized the difference between understanding someone and allowing them to keep failing you is not philosophical at all. It is practical. It lives in bank statements. Holiday schedules. The expressions on your children’s faces.

The irony is that when I met Daniel, I thought steadiness was the thing that would save me.

I grew up in a trailer park in Eastern Kentucky where steadiness was not something you inherited. It was something you built day by day out of whatever was left after rent and gas and power. The trailer where I spent most of my teenage years sat at the edge of a gravel lane outside Hazard, backed up against a patch of woods that turned black as ink after sunset. In summer, the air smelled like cut grass, hot metal, and the river. In winter, every draft made itself known. We stuffed towels under doors. We learned which floorboards let the cold through worst and avoided stepping there barefoot.