Paul, she continued, I know I should have told you about him. I know I should have trusted you. But I was so afraid. Afraid you would think less of me. Afraid you would leave. Afraid you would not understand. So I kept him a secret. I kept him locked away in this shed, hidden from the world. Hidden from you. And now I am dying and I cannot fix what I have done.
I stopped reading.
My hands were shaking. My chest felt tight. I could barely breathe.
I set the journal down and looked at the small wooden box in the drawer, the one I had seen earlier but had not opened. I picked it up carefully and lifted the lid.
Inside were photographs.
Dozens of them.
All of Brian.
The first one showed a baby wrapped in a blue blanket. His eyes were closed. His little fists were curled up against his chest. On the back, someone had written Brian, three days old.
I flipped to the next one. A toddler sitting on a swing, smiling at the camera. Then a boy in a school uniform holding a lunchbox. A teenager standing in front of a car, looking awkward and unsure.
And finally, a man.
A grown man with dark hair and tired eyes.
He was standing in front of a woodworking shop, holding a piece of carved oak in his hands.