The vegetable drawer was empty and the shelves where groceries normally sat were completely bare. I walked to the pantry and opened the rice container that Garrett had once given me as a thoughtful anniversary gift. It was spotless and completely empty.

He had not forgotten to buy food.

He had removed it.

I eventually found a small pack of crackers and a slightly soft apple on the kitchen counter. I gave Oliver a cracker and half the apple, then poured him a small glass of milk and told him to drink slowly.

He looked up at me with confusion and asked quietly, “Mommy, why are you sad?”

I forced a smile and said, “I’m not sad, sweetheart. I’m just thinking.”

Seeing him eat that cracker gratefully made something inside my mind shift from panic into determination.

I searched the house for anything useful and eventually found an old golf club stored behind a cabinet in the living room. I carried it to the window and began prying against the iron bars using the club as leverage.