“No,” he said again, softer. “Your grandmother was right. Truth had to stand somewhere. I’m glad it stood with us.”
A breeze moved through the yard, carrying the smell of cut grass and someone’s barbecue down the block.
“I keep wondering when I stopped knowing him,” Grandpa said.
“Dad?”
He nodded.
“You don’t have to solve him.”
“I’m his father. Feels like I should.”
“You’re his father. Not his excuse.”
Grandpa looked at me then, and I could see him storing that sentence somewhere.
In August, I found the final letter.
Not in the den this time. In the garage.
Grandpa had decided we needed to clean it before winter, which was his way of standing in the doorway and pointing while I moved boxes. We sorted rusted tools, paint cans, cracked flowerpots, fishing tackle, and enough extension cords to wire a small nation. In the back corner, behind an old cooler, I found Grandpa’s wooden tackle box.
Inside was a yellow envelope with my name on it.
I carried it to the driveway where Grandpa sat in a folding chair supervising.
He saw the envelope and sighed.
“What?” I asked.
“She was thorough.”
“You knew about this one?”
“Not that exact one. But I knew your grandmother.”
I opened it carefully.