I drove to the Emergency Room like a woman possessed. I kept my right hand gripping the steering wheel so hard my knuckles were stark white.

I reached my left hand back between the seats, resting it gently on Toby’s trembling knee. “Stay with me, buddy,” I kept whispering, my voice thick with unshed tears.

“Just keep breathing. In and out. Mommy’s got you and we’re almost there,” I promised him.

I ran three red lights and laid on the horn at every intersection. I didn’t care if I got pulled over because if a cop stopped me, it would only get us an escort faster.

By the time we hit the sliding glass doors of the pediatric triage desk at the local hospital in Weston, Toby’s lips were undeniably blue. His skin was cold and clammy to the touch.

The triage nurse took one look at his face and the way his chest was retracting. She immediately slammed her hand on a red button under her desk.

“Code Blue triage, need a stretcher overhead right now!” she yelled down the hall. They didn’t ask for my insurance or a clipboard.