Different door colors, different landscaping choices.
When I reached my old address, I stopped across the street.
Someone had painted the front door a deep red. The porch had new furniture—a pair of wicker chairs with bright cushions and a small table between them. A child’s scooter leaned against the railing.
In the yard, under the oak tree, a little boy in a striped shirt was jumping into a pile of leaves while a man raked them higher.
“Again!” the boy shouted.
The man laughed, tossed another armload of leaves onto the pile.
Paul had done that with Caleb once.
Once upon a time, I thought those kinds of memories were tied to the house—that if I let go of the building, I’d lose the stories.
Standing there on the sidewalk, I realized I’d been wrong about that, too.
The memories lived in me.
Not in drywall and trim.
I watched for another minute as the boy threw himself into the leaves, leaves flew up, shrieks of laughter cut through the street.
Then I turned and walked away.
No one looked out the window.
No one saw me.
That felt right.
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Caleb called once more that winter.
Blocked number, but his voice came through before I could hang up.
“Mom,” he said. “We had the baby.”