I looked at him. “Being somewhere you’re treated like you don’t matter.”
Luke nodded slowly. “Then I’d rather be lonely with you.”
My eyes stung. I ruffled his hair. “We can also be not lonely,” I said. “We’ll make our own plans.”
And I meant it—because for the first time in forever, my plans didn’t have to fit around someone else’s table.
Part 5
Christmas morning was quiet, but it wasn’t empty.
Luke woke early and climbed into my bed like he used to. “Merry Christmas,” he whispered like the words were delicate.
“Merry Christmas,” I whispered back.
We made star-shaped pancakes, even though the points came out lumpy. We opened gifts—simple, chosen with care my family never seemed to offer. A telescope because Luke loved space documentaries. A solar system book. Art markers because he’d started drawing again.
He held up the telescope box like it might float. “For me?”
“For you,” I said. “Because you’re you.”
His face softened. He blinked hard. “Thanks, Mom.”
Later we went to my friend Maya’s house. Maya was the kind of friend you find when you stop pretending your family can be everything. She had two kids Luke’s age and a husband who grilled like it was holy.