“To who?” he said. “Who are you going to send that to? Your church friends?”
I slipped the phone back into my pocket and looked at him the way I used to look at men who lied in conference rooms and thought everyone else was too polite to call it what it was.
“Thirty minutes,” I said.
His smile faltered. “What?”
“In thirty minutes,” I told him, “you’re going to find out exactly what I’m going to do about it.”
To tell you what happened in those thirty minutes, I have to go back. Courage like that does not come from nowhere. It grows slowly, fed by fear and helplessness and the horrible clarity that comes when you realize the person you love is vanishing in front of you.
My name is Helen Parker. For twenty-eight years I worked as a secretary at the District Attorney’s Office in Chicago.
I was never the person in front of the cameras. I didn’t question witnesses. I didn’t make speeches on courthouse steps. I answered phones, tracked files, typed letters, remembered who needed what and where everything was when nobody else could find it. I was the woman who kept the machine moving quietly enough that people forgot it ran on human hands at all.
That kind of work teaches you things.