In that moment, standing rigid in my dress blues while hundreds of strangers laughed at my father’s death wish, I understood the truth.

I was an orphan.

My parents were standing right there, breathing and alive, but I was completely alone.

I snapped my heels together by reflex, spine locking into the position of attention. I would not let them see me break. But inside me, the little girl who had spent her whole life wanting her father to be proud died right there on that patio.

And as the laughter kept rolling over me, it triggered something dark. It pulled me backward through time to another night when this family stood around my pain and treated it like entertainment.

Malik’s laugh on that patio was a time machine. It dragged me violently back ten years to a storm-soaked night that smelled of ozone, wet asphalt, and fear.

It was two in the morning. A summer thunderstorm was hammering the Hamptons, turning the manicured lawns into mud. I was in my room studying for the SATs when the crash shook the house.

I ran outside in my pajamas.