I moved back into the master after Vanessa left, but not immediately. For two weeks I slept in the small back room because I needed the house to exhale before I did. I needed to reclaim space slowly, deliberately, without turning my own home into a battlefield museum. Then one morning I woke up, walked upstairs, opened every window in the master, stripped the bed down to the mattress, sent the monogrammed towels to a women’s shelter through a logistics service that did not ask questions, and started over.
New sheets. White, linen, mine.
My books on the bedside table.
My mother’s framed photograph by the window.
No orchids.
It is astonishing how different a room feels once you stop imagining someone else’s entitlement in it.
In August, I hosted dinner for the first time in the house.