I know because I counted every one.
Ruby slept the whole way.
When I parked, I carried her inside and laid her on the guest bed, the one she always called her “sleepover room.” She rolled onto her side and tucked Grace under her chin without waking.
I stood there a long time.
Then I went into the kitchen, set the clinic folder on the table, and opened my old black notebook.
Engine log notebook.
I had used it for years to keep track of rebuilds. Serial numbers. Part orders. Hours worked. Problems observed. Temporary fixes. Permanent fixes. Things men forget if they trust memory too much.
On the first blank page, I wrote:
Ruby. Tuesday, October 14. 4:07 p.m. Diphenhydramine detected. Repeated administration suspected.
Then beneath that:
What do I know?
What do I need to prove?
What protects the child first?
I wrote until the coffee beside my hand went cold.
Then I called a lawyer.
James Whitfield had handled Beverly’s estate after my wife died six years earlier.
He was the kind of attorney people describe as dry because they confuse “not theatrical” with “boring.” I liked him instantly the first time we met because he never once used a comforting lie where a hard truth would do better.