When it was over, when the taillights dissolved into the rain, I opened the door just long enough to pick up the knitted cap that had fallen from the baby’s head. It was damp and impossibly small. I set it on the console table and stared at it until my vision blurred.
The next morning, I filed for a temporary restraining order. Not because I wanted to punish anyone, but because I wanted to sleep.
Richard Martinez met me at the courthouse, his tie impeccably straight despite the wind whipping off the harbor. “You’re doing the right thing,” he said. “Boundaries are not weapons. They’re safety rails.”
The judge granted the TRO for thirty days. Service was arranged. I walked out into the thin winter sun feeling both lighter and heavier, like I’d set down a suitcase and realized how long I’d been carrying it.
Elizabeth insisted on taking me to lunch to celebrate the small win. We chose a sunny table by the window of a South End café where the servers wore chambray shirts and the cappuccino came with hearts in the foam.
“Tell me about him,” I said when our food arrived, surprising myself. “Tell me about the boy who existed before the man who lied.”