We ended up at her place with a chess pie, a pumpkin pie, and a pecan pie that stubbornly refused to set. We ate it anyway, laughing with spoons. Afterward, we took a walk in the brittle cold, our breath visible, our hands tucked into our sleeves like kids.
“Do you miss them?” Elizabeth asked gently.
“Yes,” I said. The truth sat clean on my tongue. “And I don’t miss being small.”
“Both can be true.”
Back at her apartment, we found an envelope slid under the door. My name on the front in my father’s precise, architectural script. Inside: a check for $12,000, the exact total of the monthly transfers I had canceled, and a letter written in his lawyer’s voice but his words.
I owe you this. I also owe you more than money. I don’t know how to be the man who says that out loud. I am trying to learn. —H.
I stared at the check for a long time. “What will you do?” Elizabeth asked.
I tore it in half, then in quarters. “Earned apologies don’t come with line items,” I said, and tossed the pieces in the trash. Then I pulled the trash bag out, tied it tight, and set it by the door. “But I’ll keep the letter.”