I still don’t know what love will look like when it finds me next. I know only this: it will not require me to be smaller. It will have room for lemon bars and leftover grief and brand-new laughter. It will recognize the woman who called 911 on her own history and lived to tell the story.

And when the doorbell rings, I will look through the peephole. I will choose whether to open the door. I will remember that choosing is not cruelty. It’s how you make a home.