I needed a moment of absolute silence. I went into the last stall, the one farthest from the door, and carefully sat down on the toilet seat, closing my eyes. I inhaled deeply, counting to four, and exhaled, counting to eight. Gradually, the trembling in my hands began to subside. The silence of the bathroom was a balm. I could hear the distant hum of the air conditioner and my own heartbeat, which was beginning to synchronize.

“You’re ready,” I whispered. “You’re going to walk out, you’re going to walk down the aisle, and you’re going to be the happiest woman in the world.”

I was about to get up, smooth down my skirt, and return to my role as a radiant bride when the sound of the front door opening froze me in my tracks. It wasn’t the light footsteps of a woman, nor the click-clack of my friends’ heels coming to get me. It was heavy, quick footsteps, followed by others that were softer, almost furtive.

I froze. I didn’t want anyone to see me there, hiding like a frightened child. I decided to wait until they washed their hands and left. But then, I heard the voice. That voice I knew better than my own.