After the vehicles pulled away, the yard remained frozen for a strange extra beat, as though the scene had ended but no one had yet been told whether to clap, disperse, or call a lawyer. My uncle finally cleared his throat and said everyone should go inside because it was getting cold. People obeyed because ordinary instructions become precious after catastrophe. I stood where I was until the field beyond the barn blurred and sharpened again. Crawford came back from a call and stopped beside me.

“You all right?”

“No.”

“Good,” he said. “You’d worry me if you were.”

We drove back to D.C. in darkness.