Madison let out a laugh sharp enough to cut skin. “Wow. So noble from the guy who sits in his room pretending he’s Steve Jobs.”
“I don’t pretend anything,” I said.
My father put his fork down. “You think because you work with computers all day you’re above basic family duty?”
“I think I’m not responsible for her spending.”
That ended with a week of hostility and my mother telling Lily in the next room, loud enough for me to hear, “Some people only love this family when it costs them nothing.”
That sentence stayed with me because it was such a neat inversion. In our house, love was always defined by what you surrendered. The less self you kept, the more virtuous you were considered. Boundaries weren’t signs of maturity. They were evidence of selfishness.
Lily noticed things. She always had.
A few nights after the spa-trip argument, she knocked on my bedroom door with her sketchbook tucked under one arm. She was thirteen then, gangly and serious, with dark hair she kept trying to cut herself and eyes that gave away too much.
“Can I sit in here?” she asked.
“Always.”
She sat on the floor while I worked at my desk. For a while she said nothing. Then, very quietly, “Were you wrong?”