I asked myself that all through the drive to the estate the day of the wedding. Past trimmed hedges, vineyard fencing, and signs directing guests toward valet parking under white tents. I asked myself while I stood in front of the hotel mirror fastening a pair of plain pearl earrings and choosing a dark dress simple enough not to look like competition or apology. I asked myself while I walked through the ballroom entrance and handed my invitation to a woman with a headset who smiled brightly until she read my name and then paused for one almost invisible second.

Closure, I told myself.

Maybe I wanted to see whether time had changed them.

Maybe I wanted proof that it hadn’t.

Maybe some wounded part of me still wanted to walk into a room where they least expected my strength and discover whether being seen would finally feel like justice.