I held it for a long moment, feeling its weight, listening to the heater clatter and the distant sound of traffic rushing by—indifferent and constant.
I thought about what it meant to open it.
Once I did, there would be no going back.
Whatever was inside would change something, even if I didn’t yet know how.
I took a slow breath, studied my hands, and slid my finger under the seal.
The paper tore with a soft sound—barely a whisper—but it felt louder than anything else in the room.
Before I pulled anything out, my mind drifted back to the moment she had given it to me, to the days just before the end, when time had stretched thin and every hour felt borrowed.
It had been late afternoon, light slanting through the curtains in long, tired lines.
Margaret lay propped against the pillows, her breathing shallow but steady, the morphine finally giving her a few hours of clarity.
Those moments were rare near the end—brief windows when her eyes sharpened and her voice sounded like herself again.
I had been changing her sheets, moving carefully, apologizing the way I always did, even though she was the one who insisted she was sorry for the trouble.