Not because it was unfamiliar, but because it had become, over the years, one of those words that always arrived carrying a second meaning. Family meant obey. Family meant absorb. Family meant don’t embarrass us in front of people who matter. Family meant your sacrifices count as love, our sacrifices count as investment, and only one of those can ever be questioned. Family had not included me the night he stood in the front doorway of the house I’d grown up in and told me that if I walked out with my college applications and my “attitude,” I should not bother crawling back. Family had not included me when my clothes were shoved into two black garbage bags and dropped on the porch beside a suitcase with a busted zipper. Family had not included me once in the ten years since then except when someone needed something that could be described as practical and delivered with minimal emotional mess.
I did not answer him.
I nodded to Mr. Thompson instead, because he was at least real.