That night, my father sent a letter. Real paper. Real stamp. The handwriting that had signed permission slips and co-signed loans so easily I thought signatures were wishes. It began with a sentence he’d never said to me aloud: I’m sorry. Then came what sounded like a confession and what might just have been narrative maintenance. I told myself I was keeping peace. I told myself your mother knew better than I did. I told myself you were strong enough to carry it.

I read it twice. I wrote a reply on a card with a blue bird on the front that looked like it could take a long flight. I accept that you are sorry, I wrote. I do not accept what happened. We are not speaking directly for now. Legal or written correspondence only. I hope you make a better story going forward. For both of us, I no longer carry yours.

I did not mail it that night. I put it under a magnet shaped like a lemon and went to bed.