And as the taillights ahead of me blurred into red streaks, my mind slipped backward—not by choice, but by instinct.
Ten years earlier, this road had meant something else.
It had been the road I took home from the hospital the night Margaret had her stroke, my hands gripping the steering wheel so tightly my fingers went numb. My phone had buzzed unanswered in the passenger seat, Ryan’s name flashing again and again before finally going silent.
Back then I had a life that felt like it was just beginning to open up.
A steady job.
Plans I talked about out loud.
Mornings that belonged to me.
All of that ended the night a doctor pulled me aside in a fluorescent hallway and spoke in careful, measured sentences about brain damage, mobility, long-term care.
Ryan stood beside me, nodding, saying all the right things.
“We’ll figure it out,” he promised.
Lisa cried, her hand pressed dramatically to her mouth.
Someone had to make a decision quickly, the doctor said.
Someone had to stay.
Ryan had a job, responsibilities, the kind he could say out loud and have people nod sympathetically. Lisa said she wasn’t good with medical things.