That counted as progress, in the strange language of families.
After she left, Ethan said, “Thank you.”
I shrugged. “I did it for Leo.”
“I know.”
By spring, Leo was pulling to stand.
By summer, he had one tooth, then another, and a laugh so infectious it could turn any room human again.
My career came back slowly. Not all at once. Not in a triumphant montage. In invoices, consultations, fabric boards, and work I could do during naps or after bedtime. I redesigned a café corner for Maya just because I loved her. Then two paying clients came from that. Then a townhouse project. Then a referral from one of the moms in a parenting group who liked the nursery I had done months before.
Money stopped feeling like a cliff edge and started feeling like planning again.
I moved us into a slightly larger apartment still near Green Lake—same neighborhood, better windows, more light, a second bedroom that felt almost luxurious. Per the agreement, I informed Ethan in writing two weeks before the move. He offered movers. I declined. He sent over boxes anyway. I accepted those.
By then we had learned something important: refusing everything is just another form of fear.