You grip the rail, breathe through the contraction, and meet Damian’s eyes. In them you see panic, entitlement, shame, and the stubborn certainty that he still belongs in any room made by the consequences of his own actions. You realize then that this is the choice that matters more than any line item in court.
Not whether he loves you. Not whether he regrets what he did.
Whether you will keep translating his proximity into privilege.
“No,” you say.
He stares.
“No?” he repeats, as if the word has become unrecognizable in your mouth.
“No.” Your voice is hoarse but steady. “You can wait outside. You can meet your son after he’s born. But this part? This part is mine.”
Your mother’s face flickers with something like awe.
Damian looks as though you have slapped him. Then the nurse gently ushers him back into the hallway while another contraction tears through you so hard all other thoughts disappear.
Nine hours later, your son is born.
He arrives red-faced and furious and perfect, with a shock of dark hair plastered to his head and lungs strong enough to fill the room. The first cry splits you open in an entirely different way than labor did. Not pain this time. Revelation.