You replace the guest-room curtains. You rip out the hideous chrome bar stools he loved and install a broad oak table where Mateo can one day do homework and spill juice and listen to stories about the women who survived before him. The house becomes yours not because a judge says so, though she does, but because you finally stop arranging yourself around his shadow inside it.
Your mother visits often.
She sits in the rocker with Mateo asleep on her chest and says things like, “I always knew he was too polished,” which is both comforting and suspiciously convenient in retrospect. But she also helps. She folds laundry. Makes soup. Holds the baby when you shower. Cries once in your laundry room because she says watching you be strong has exhausted her in ways she did not expect.
You hug her with one arm because the other is holding Mateo.
“I didn’t want to be strong,” you admit.
“I know.”
And that, too, is its own kind of healing. Being seen not as heroic, but as human.