The fear was real, and I was not going to insult it by denying it. I sat with it for a few minutes. I let it exist. And then, and this is the part that surprised me, the fear began to change shape. Not to disappear, but to become something else, something with more weight and more direction. Anger maybe, or resolve.
The two are similar enough to be useful in the same ways. I picked up the phone again and called Dorothy, and then Linda Cho, and then James again, because there were things to prepare. They had shown me their hand. That was a mistake and I had work to do. The hearing before the Ohio Lottery Commission’s dispute resolution panel was held on a Wednesday morning in April in a conference room on the third floor of a state office building on Fourth Street.