“I worked six days a week sometimes. I took overnight server maintenance shifts because they paid more. I ate rice and roasted vegetables for three straight winters because I wanted my down payment account to grow faster. I said no to vacations and weddings and girls’ trips and every single thing my family told me I was weird for turning down. I built this place one boring decision at a time. And I asked them for one night. One.”
Amber’s face flushed. “I said I was sorry.”
“No,” I said. “You brought a grocery store cake with the price tag still on it because someone sent you to stop this from becoming awkward.”
“That’s not fair.”
I laughed, not because it was funny but because I had spent my whole life hearing the word fair deployed exclusively in defense of everyone else’s convenience.
“Define fair,” I said.
She stared at me, and for a second I thought she might actually try. But she didn’t. She just looked tired.
“You always make everything feel heavier than it needs to be,” she muttered.
That line would have worked on me once. It had, many times. I had spent years apologizing for the weight of my own experience because other people preferred lighter packaging.