As weeks turned into months, the house stopped feeling new and started feeling mine in the deeper sense. My coffee mugs found permanent shelves. Books spread across the windowsill in the den. The office collected cords and notebooks and the mild chaos of sustained usefulness. I planted tomatoes in the yard and lost two of them to overwatering before I learned the soil properly. I discovered that the fireplace drew better if I cracked the flue early. I learned where the floor creaked near the stairs and where the morning light made the kitchen too bright unless I closed one particular blind halfway.
The absence of my family became less like an injury and more like weather I had once lived under and no longer did.