I stayed in her guest room for three weeks. I slept badly. I ate toast and soup and let Ruth’s two cats sleep on my feet, which helped more than I expected. I made lists. That was always how I processed things. I made lists.
On a yellow legal pad I found in Ruth’s kitchen drawer, I wrote down everything I had lost.
The house first. Birwood Lane. The wraparound porch. The maple tree.
Then the money. Our joint savings account had been drained legally through Harold’s restructuring, and my share of the settlement came to $310,000 after attorney fees. That sounds like a sum until you are 76 years old with no income, no property, and the medical expenses that come with age.
Then I wrote down the children. Douglas had called me once after the hearing. He said:
“Mom, Dad explained everything. I think you need to give him space.”
He hung up before I could respond.
Patricia had not called at all.
Susan sent a text message. A text message that said she was staying out of it.
These were my children. I had sat with every one of their fevers. I had driven them to soccer practice and SAT tutoring and emergency rooms. I had loved them without condition for decades, and they were staying out of it.