I wrote their names on the list too. Not out of bitterness, not yet. Just to acknowledge what was real.

For the first two weeks, I told myself I simply needed to survive, find a place to live, figure out the money, breathe. Ruth offered to let me stay as long as I needed, and I was grateful. But I also knew that Ruth’s house was Ruth’s life, and I was not a woman who survived by borrowing someone else’s space indefinitely.

But somewhere in the third week, while I was sitting at Ruth’s kitchen table with my legal pad and a cup of tea gone cold, something shifted. I had been so focused on what had been done to me that I hadn’t stopped to ask a different question.

What had been done exactly?

And was it legal?

I am not a lawyer. I never finished my degree. I left college in 1969 to marry Harold, which was what women did then, a decision I made freely and never fully regretted until now.

But I was not unintelligent.