Three from unknown numbers that are almost certainly extended relatives.
Two voicemails from my mother.
Four texts from Kyle ranging from what the hell was that to mom is really upset to can we talk like adults—which is rich, coming from a man who once asked me to fax paperwork to his landlord because he “didn’t really do forms.”
Another message from my father.
This one longer.
I know you’re angry. You have every right to be. I should have said something on that call. I should have stopped this when your mother started talking about excluding you. I’m ashamed of how it happened. I’m ashamed I didn’t know the house was yours. I don’t know if that makes anything worse, but I’m sorry.
I read it once.
Then I archive it.
There is a difference between punishment and distance. I am not interested in punishing my father indefinitely. I am interested in no longer organizing my emotional world around his chronic failure to choose courage in time.
The voicemails from my mother can wait forever.
I spend the morning documenting.
Photos of the drink rings.
Photos of the moved items.
A written timeline of events while memory is fresh.
Notes from the sheriff’s deputies.
The number of the responding officer.