I do not hate them. Hate requires a kind of sustained heat I no longer have available. My work consumes too much of it. I escort frightened people through parking garages and side entrances and courthouse tunnels. I stand at the backs of courtrooms while witnesses learn the cost of telling the truth in public. I make coffee too strong, buy practical boots, lock my doors twice, and read every power-of-attorney clause with the paranoia of the converted. Younger deputies send each other to me when a witness family needs the truth delivered cleanly—without soothing lies, without unnecessary panic, with enough gravity to respect their fear and enough control to keep them moving. Somewhere along the line I became the kind of marshal who can tell a mother in one sentence that she has twenty minutes to pack and somehow make her believe that twenty minutes is survivable.

I suspect my father would have admired that in another context. I suspect my mother would have bragged about it to people while misunderstanding every hard edge that made it possible.