Soon, every day came with instructions. “Wear something cleaner.” “Stop using that old perfume.” “You breathe so loud. Can you try not to?” She made a separate plate for me during meals, separate from hers and the children’s. Then she claimed it was because her children found it “gross” to watch me eat.
I cried silently into the bathroom sink that night. I tried to adjust. I bought new clothes that did not quite fit right. I showered twice a day. I ate quietly, deliberately, measuring every bite. But the more I tried, the more frustrated she became, as if my age itself was a stain I could not wash out.
One afternoon, while I pruned the azaleas Paul had planted the summer before he died, I heard her voice float through the kitchen window. She was on the phone, talking to someone. I recognized her sister’s tone through the speaker, though I only caught Tessa’s side.
“I cannot stand living with her, Claire,” she was saying. “She is disgusting. Like all old people. She coughs weird and she chews like she has no teeth. I swear, being around her makes my skin crawl. But I need the house. The job market is awful. I just have to put up with her until I get hired somewhere.”