I filled out the application for the studio apartment. I attached proof of income, references from my manager at the bookstore, and a brief explanation of why I needed the place.
My finger hovered over the submit button.
This was it. Once I sent this, there was no going back.
I took a deep breath and clicked submit.
The next few days passed in a blur.
I went to class, worked my shifts at the bookstore, helped customers find textbooks and Royals hoodies, and avoided my family as much as possible. Every time my mother brought up the ultimatum, I gave vague, noncommittal answers.
I needed time. I needed to know I had somewhere to land.
Three days later, I got an email during a slow hour at work.
The landlord wanted to meet me.
My heart raced as I read the message.
This was real.
This was happening.
I scheduled a viewing for the next afternoon, telling my parents I had a study group on campus.
The studio was even smaller in person than it had looked in the photos, but it was clean and quiet. The building smelled faintly of old wood and laundry detergent. The hallway carpet was worn but not filthy. Outside, I could hear the distant sounds of city traffic instead of my nieces crying.